maria mison: integrated awakenings

Hi. 

So this is the second time I’ll be making this post, and I’m mostly talking about the same events but I feel that it’s best I talk about it again since there are nuances to this that I feel should be emphasized:

Yes you can run out of karma.

Yes, traditionally this is called Full Enlightenment.

If you don’t make new karma/ new entanglements, you either spontaneously die or live as some kind of frequency/empty~cold compassion. I’ve assisted folks who suddenly fulfilled their life’s mission and suffered a sudden physical purging as their bodies suddenly decoupled with the programming of having a persona/ego. 

So the thing is: Been There Done That (twice actually). 

Now if you’re metaphysically fancy/well researched, you would know that a lot of texts and enlightened people have different perspectives with regards to enlightenment. 

1) There’s self-sacrificing boddhisattvas that choose to incarnate again, taking up karma again for the sake of the World, burning more karmic knots just because they could.

2) There are those, usually of a Void tradition, who really advocate existing in the world without a human suit/persona/puppet. These folks tend to talk about how everything is programming, a very advanced A.I. or illusion, and how the truth of the matter is we don’t exist and one is more free if one lives in truth. These folks tend to live more isolated lives (not in the city), speak esoterically (i mean imagine if you are a living koan/paradox of not being a person), and usually don’t live with the typical facets of a forgive the quotes — “human” trappings. Meaning, a regular job, their family etc. They can talk about animating a mask/ego for the sake of social graces, and usually it’s a lot of work or even painful for them.

3) There are those who also have skimmed and tasted full void/God experiences, and are familiar with some heightened sensitivity states. Some of these folks can even have siddhis/esoteric abilities and have some mastery over it, but to be honest this doesn’t necessarily mean they’re enlightened. You can be familiar with the terrain of the mountain but have never gone, all the Way To The Top.

Now, to be clear I fall squarely on the first category. I’ve sustained being “fully empty” twice, and other than it’s scary (since it’s a full ego death — and well even Death Of Reality), I also realized in the process how much God itself wants to experience things. I dared say to the vast emptiness new attachments: I WANT TO SEE MY NIECE GROW UP. I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN OF MY OWN. I want to exist! I know the vast burning of my soul shall burn spontaneously all lies, karma —-but also, I shall paradoxically grow the great vines of the Play and The Attachments that I continue to Play Act in my existence. (There are accounts of yogis cultivating their attachments/hooks towards food or even physical objects so that their soul wouldn’t spontaneously transcend — techniques from which I’ve studied during the days I felt very untethered and my grasp to this world was weakened)

But that’s the thing, the trick the great koan-paradox. You exist, and Not Exist at the same time. The actor knows its a game, or a role, but being immersed in it makes you an Empassioned Actor Anyway! The symbols I received in dreams was that my acting role/lines have ran out — my akashic contracts — emptied! The castles of my previous baggages burned with no trace. And I was like —PUT ME IN! Give me an improvised role! The great game is about directing anyway right?? Let’s play out a good story shall we? What if I’m a game designer, or like a bug in an otherwise rigid matrix? What if we lay trap doors everywhere? What if! I plop in and out of my avatar as I please, modifying it based on the worlds and games that the people around me are self-animating and playing? What if we — stay? In a conscious manner? 

Everyone rebirths, and re-transfigures themselves all the time anyway, it’s as much of a given as breathing. It would be fun wouldn’t it?

And to be honest, I think this is kind of a rare take amongst the spirituality/awakening sphere since a lot of folks walk souls up to the Void, but don’t really debate the intricacies after you Fully Empty Out. I’ll be fair with you: I think staying in a pure non-avatared state is kind of boring/ or a cop-out into Fully Creating with Life. Why exist here if you don’t want to be a Player Character? So that you’re a walking air/void/anomaly thing? The whole process of burning/awakening is can actually Hurt A Lot Of Human Relationship games. Think of wives and children left by their husbands suddenly becoming poor beggars in a “spiritual” country seeking for enlightenment. Or how speaking in spiritual hullabaloo alienates usually your closest family members you’re supposed to heal/release attachments from. I just think it gets a lot of press because the FULL DEATH EXPERIENCE (NDEs) / FULL GOD MODE experiences, are so intense that we can’t help but talk about it! Pedestal it a little bit.

What’s crazy is, I think it’s way more impressive for a soul to live so Fully Human with the full expression of their gifts and intentions. Whether you’re a soul that hasn’t been human for long, or has been human for a long time and are weary of some old games that the collective keeps re-animating. I FIND THIS JOKE SO ODD! SO HILARIOUS:

“Why listen to Old Souls when they keep failing to graduate? 🤔”

BUT HERE’S THE THING! It’s not exactly School for some of us, and for a lot of us it’s just a game after you’ve touched Empty a couple of times. You don’t do it to “win”, you do it cause you just love to play. Also those shitty games (horrible stuff that keeps existing) keeps getting re-animated by incarnate souls and you’re always wondering: I wonder if we can bottom-out/ end that program??? HMN Can you? And thus we stay poking around at stuff on the game machine board that we just wanna snicker and roll on about with, you mess with tech. You co-create with other PCs and mirrors of your ultimate self. It’s fun!

I’ve had all sorts of clients, “cases” per se. Ranging from the transgenerational, transhumanist, or even just the very muggle mundane kind of human woes of growing up. If I were to be technical, I love shamanic journeys where you rectify and restitch up so many pieces of your wayward soul, and occasionally I load up energetic packets (kriyas if you want an ancient term), like loaning beefed up gear and artifacts in an RPG game, to a lower levelled player. Oh you haven’t developed strong shields yet? Here’s a photocopy of one that I loan out a lot, it will self un-install when you figure out how to make your own. And you will be taught, energetically and subliminally(!), eventually how to do that. There’s poetry, so much beauty but also honesty in the way we work, in the way the worlds/dimensions work. I find myself writing/typing up prayers and requests to the firmament for the usual: more safe places for souls to land, more halls for folks to play, explore and dance, so much more ease and grace and ease and grace and certain birth and invention for folks to re-write themselves into more beautiful worlds.

Anywho, that was the nuance I wanted to flesh out. 

As always,
Maria