maria mison: integrated awakenings

I would like to start this essay with a very simple story: when I was younger, I always hated being taken photos of. When I wasn’t feeling it and especially when it wasn’t consented by me. Ironically I really enjoyed photography as I felt like it was an active way to follow how sunlight kisses a place. It felt intimate, respectful, guided. Whereas photos of me felt, like I was being chained in place, having copies of my likeness duplicated in ways I’m not surely how and what would come about. 

In the 21st century however, it becomes unavoidable to have at least ID photos of you circulated somewhere, and it’s actually socially accepted (especially in the Philippines) to update loved ones on social media with photos of your latest trip or a well taken selfie. 

What are the energetic ramifications of these changes? 

Why is it for others so anxiety-inducing to be perceived online?

How powerful is a public image of you? (How fickle too?)

Let’s explore.

“I Feel Overwhelmed All the Time” and the Internet Age

For those who are unfamiliar with the basics of prayer, spellwork and “sending” energies, you usually only need a name, sometimes a birthday, or better yet a photo. In the old days, it would be potent to have an item that was actually owned by this person: to folks who aren’t extra sensory, I would describe that items have these echoes and matrices of information even of what was done to it and what kind of person held and owned it. 

If a tree fell in the forrest and no one heard it, did it really fall?

If a particle in quantum physics reacts towards the perception of the observer, is it really as independent as we like to think? 

If everyone says the boy who cried wolf is always a big fat liar, who would believe his true story when society energizes the very convincing identity that he is a boy that cries, and a boy that lies about a wolf?

“Hell is Other People” ika nga (says) Satre. 

Everyone at some point in their lives has struggled through this very same predicament. If there is a beautiful and wondrous thing about you but it is not reflected back by one’s community, and closest relationships, it feels “repressed”, you feel like a “fraud” or that it’s “Not Even Real”. This doesn’t only speak to people as social beings, but also speaks to the multi-dimensional quantum truth of reality. Every soul holds a matrice of perception, of what is true and possible in Reality, and we all navigate these superimposed waves of how Reality works, of wether pigs can fly, magick is real, or if deep-inside you’re worthy, an adult or “good”. When we are younger and energy bodies are still constructing themselves, we borrow a lot of self-perceptions from the people around us, as well as perceptions with how to perceive the world. Educators like to call this schema, as someone who deals with energetics though, I would like to emphasize that these thought forms literally shape your reality, as well as what “You” can be. 

I would also like to emphasize that to someone who can see thoughtforms, these are physical, biological things, clouds, whole channels, communes of “How Life Is” “How the World Works” and “How We Treat People”. Much of the personal self-development sphere deals with moving past limiting belief systems that don’t serve you in the long run, a kind of opt-out and shedding of matrices that don’t serve you. What people usually miss though is that other folks can still see you, and if they animate a reality of a more limited you, in some dimensional reality, that will be true, that is how their energy operates and animates you. One can see how this is aptly called an Evil Eye, how easily jealousy and these “light” curses can be put upon people. This also accounts to how deeply transformative it is for someone to “believe” in you, they are in a literal sense holding an energetic reality where you are more than what you gave yourself permission to be. 

Which loops me back as to why it can be exhausting to have images of oneself in a public sphere: the sheer dissonance, cacophony, and labor of harmonizing so many variegated realities all at once. A raw reminder: We are All Connected. A practical anecdote: every time I see a view count on my story, with little profiles popping up, I get a little “taste”/update of how this person interfaces with me: this one’s a bit vampiric, fearful, this one’s a little willfully blind, a lot have a beautiful heart and generous energy. I’ve cultivated my spirituality accounts to have a certain kind of sieve of interactions, and quality and expectations of message, it’s actually quite jarring (and funny) to swap to my general (“Normie”) account and have my communications channel feel smaller and significantly less energetic. People who follow me on my general account animate a maria that’s a dancer but also an artsy nerd, and a friendly acquaintance. I’m less of channel of the deceased and/or extra-dimensional realities, and simply friend shaped. This is all very convenient for everybody and yes I do have gemini placements. 

But others are not so lucky. Extrasensory or not, on an energetic level one does and will receive other people’s perception of you. Especially if you grew up in a collectivist society and are socialized to manage group harmonies, these subtle energies will not just be a mute background, but will be a very real and thick influence to how you move and operate in the world. If anything this inter-stitching assures a kind of fluid transition, communication you might say between every soul’s Reality Bubble, but also, a lot of the existing collective realities Purely Stink. “Exhausting Oneself is Noble?” “There Will Never Be Enough For Everybody?” how about “You Need To Suffer to Earn Anything Nice” these are not the nicest nor even efficient realities to live in and yet this is the Panopticon (All Seeing Prison) that we wade through should we participate/ subtlety perform in the public sphere of the internet. We want to be acceptable enough to be legible (1) we try to get to have a sense of relief and connection in any which way we can as we trot around online (2). Such are some of the navigations we strive towards while communicating online. 

That’s terrifying Maria, how do I go about “protecting” one’s soul?

I’ve had a popular younger woman, once ask me. They have a very public job, where their likeness and words are documented and published for many cultures and spaces. They used to post online on social media often, but due to stress they’ve had an assistant now post for them, and their personal posts have dwindled down due to fear of overexposure. This particular person also happens to have really strong ancestors, so my answer to her was quite simple: petition her ancestors to protect her every word and image, as the precious child and message of the labor that she does. 

I’ll talk about people in the public eye again (celebrities, announcers, the media cycle etc) again in a moment, but I would like to cover some basics in protecting oneself from the evil eye, and just shoring up your Reality especially with one’s online presence. 

(1) invoke an aspect of communication, and others

Arch Angel Gabriel, the Planet Mercury, Patron Saints of Messengers, The Word itself. Ask specifically for the divine emanation of communication to aid you in your presentation in the world. What are your intentions? How and Who would you like to touch? Would you want them to be softened by your sincerity, maybe energized by your passion? Regardless of cultural barriers, and projections, what do you want to shine through? Really consider what part of yourself and your gifts are you ready to share the world, and be honest with how you would want them to receive it: is it your simple friendship? this thing you learned that could help other caregivers? maybe it’s your curiosity. The energy of your communication is shaped by your intentions, and even beyond words, people will feel this underlying truth and presence, and spirit (as this is how Reality works) will protect this communication to arrive in such manner. 

(2) invoke protection for your image, as well as your name

A picture is worth a thousand words, and well yes, depending on an image, it can be inlaid with so many gates and access points to your energy/ you aura depending on the quality of your shield and the capacities of the perceiver. I’ll state the obvious: protect the images of babies. There is a common practice of censoring minors faces, especially for online human trafficking abuses, but other than that there is the simple fact that their energies aren’t as stable as adults. When I mean protect, I don’t mean never post, discern how safe the people you share to are, and also there are really souls/families that have really strong energetic protection that wouldn’t bother with this. 

If you are going through something emotionally difficult, remember access to your truth is a privilege. It is healing to be heard in safe spaces, but it is also damaging to be judged harshly in unsafe spaces. Cultivate access to your stories well, know that it can be relieving to rant anonymously online, but even anonymous posts have a feint string that loops back to your core energy. If you feel scattered in the first place: have rituals and prayer to have all of yourself return to you. Again, I can’t emphasize enough, be intentional when you share stories and images of yourself online, yes here’s the public part of me, maybe even parts of my persona I’m willing to share on a public sphere like twitter, instagram or facebook but know that your more intimate stories are best communicated artistically, or discerned to the appropriate audience. 

This might sound very scorpio of me, but please surrender in prayer and protection not only of your image but also how people use your name especially in business and in the court of law. Your name is a spell, one of the oldest spells you learn to refer to this incarnation of your soul, and to have someone speak of it cruelly, or have say, a government database of your personal info, hacked will and does affect you. Idamay mo na (include even) your PIN numbers, and passwords, anything in the realm of being yours, and being kept secret to be spiritually protected. Notice how there are photos of Eryka Badu where it’s kind of hard to look at her face/ and eyes directly, so many shaman’s masks involve the covering of their face being appropriately shrouded. Maybe even, just read the wikipedia page of the Evil Eye and see how historically commonplace it was to invoke protection from a random onlooker. 

3) Finally, do back work, all aspects of you that you feel have been stolen, or harmed by exposure to the wrong connections, pray for them, now that they be protected by the you now that knows better. 

A lot of spirituality texts talk about (the ontological) Now, like living in the present. But here’s the thing, in some dimensions of reality time and space simply folds, you touch — an eternal time and space, “Everything Everywhere All At Once”. So when I say back-work, I actually mean omni-directional time work, I actually mean praying for every dimension level and version of you, this lesson you learned you send it there and weave it back to your core, your present your Now. 

If you are new to this idea, trust that your sincere intention will guide you to do this effectively.

If you want another way to think about this, it’s a way to pray for and save your past-self, and this fun open-ended collaboration with future-selves and parallel selves that can exist.

This can be tricky to explain for those who haven’t experienced this directly, but basically there are different incarnations of us in All-Time, and we receive help so effectively when it comes from a locus that is You. In another lens, in some levels of reality, We are all Each Other anyway, so this is also another way of saying of praying for everybody, and basically the world, and receive the reaping of what you prayed for a hundred-fold, or technically, an infinitely fractal generous manner of iterations. This weaving not only makes you feel more energized, but also makes you feel more healthily integrated into the fractal grids of reality, because you do acknowledge that they exist, but you also consciously participate in the versions of it that are generous, intentional, and more aligned with the work of your soul.

Final Thoughts on Celebrity

As I promised I would loop back to them. Very public figures, and the enigma-legacy of them are testaments with how powerful images, stories and a soul’s presentation can have such a wide and gripping power. I’m sure that there are more insightful books and historians about the culture of celebrities, and particular people so I would rather focus on the energetic dimension of this. 

Know that thoughts and memory, occupy time and space. Some of them can feel like blankets, others like a whole nother world constellated around a certain musician etc. Some folks call these Tulpas, Egregors, these thoughts that are are energized with consciousness or reality-matrices that make them true. I don’t want to delve into the historical baggage of these terms too much (this is why I’ve been using thoughtform as a term for the most part as it delivers what I mean more directly), I just want to point out that these souls have linked to them massive energetic thoughtforms some of them much larger than they can usually handle.

Thus they can be swallowed by it (the fame/the pressure), while others lets a company (another group entity) go head to head with it like an equal match/tango, while others try to consciously rally for this popular cult-like/super-fans following (as marketers would call it) for the raw energy and potentialities of it. I’ve had a few famous clients, but to be fair, even not-so-super famous people can have their fair share of entanglements with the public eye, wether it just be the perception of their ex-husband’s family or the existing culture of their work place environment. These eyes, they’re everywhere and it’s nice to at least acknowledge the energetic potency of their gaze, their expectation or even their everyday cruelty. 

Writing to you, in hopes we don’t turn a blind eye to this (hah) but also so that your struggles and exhaustion with the public sphere can also be given appropriate energetic logic.

Til next time,

Maria