maria mison: integrated awakenings

Hi! This is a really old blog roll. I’ve recently re-embedded it into my professional website since I’ve been getting more clients from this main website and even old readers wondering where my old blogposts have gone. Sorry for MIA most of my recent content/updates are on my podcast.

However some things (not just SEO) are also more conveniently understood and picked up on via text so I thought I’d make my comeback by clarifying a certain statement…

Your Hyper-Sensitivity May Be Calling to Greater Energetic-Body Mastery/Knowing – Case Studies

For folks who are unoriented to my experience/capacities I have all the clairsenses. When I wish to I can see a lot of energetic architecture, make-up and natal engineering people have going on (mental-emotional-spiritual bodies), especially if it’s to aid them in a session. I usually have most of this information turned-off much like a X-RAY specialist doesn’t lug around their X-RAY machine for everything. I work as a shaman on this website and mostly an artist-teacher-healer otherwise.

I find it very peculiar when someone states that they can’t interface with the bustle of the city ever since their “spiritual awakening” or they’re too much of an “empath” to be able to interface with people like most folks. Some people even extend this phenomena to neurodivergence (eg: AuDHD folks disliking certain stimuli) or as a quip against the “matrix” over-culture that is simply so insensitive to sensitive souls.

Let me offer another perspective: You tapped into more sensitive bands of frequency, and you don’t know how to invoke insulation for your new wires yet.

That’s it.

For folks who always kind of gesture towards yogis, and rishis, I do want to remind folks that some of the titles these folks enjoy are masters of the energetic body. If they can’t possibly shield themselves to walk amidst say “toxic” people then there’s nothing exactly powerful or enlightened about them is there? I do want to state, for the books, that it is quite normal to feel naked when you’re undergoing through a massive shedding. For eg for me, when I had my clairsenses come online: it was very overwhelming for me to be at the mall or even read twitter because I can downright smell, and physical-bodily sympathize with every thought and energetic memory these digital and public spaces were holding.

It’s like all the hidden cache for a website was suddenly revealed, and if you’re not a developer/programmer, you don’t know where the “close tab” button is or even how to transform, look up, siphon, pack and move such information. I still have the same levels of access as before, but they’re all “Parked” and only pass through me with my explicit command, plus it’s filtered and arranged in a manner that’s legible and useful information. I built programs/have my own personal assistant make me executive summaries of what I “have-to” explicitly know on a conscious self level, and everything else can sit in the back-burner, the akash, or just be worked on by my own subliminal architecture/intentions of what do I do with certain kinds of information: compassion, surrender, a solid boundary etc etc. All of this has been quite automatic, I asked for it to be so.

Which leads me to case studies.

Because as someone who loves studying the energetic architecture of people, I can really tell you that we’re all not built the same way, so what could work for me can very most likely not work for other people. I call myself a shaman because I usually conduct journeys, and use metaphors to describe people’s inner landscape and resting energies.

When someone’s natal frequency is gossamer-like to a point of disappearance, they would not benefit from any kind of fortress-shield building that feels solid and tactile. They’re a disappearing act, their shields are more like a hall of mirrors, akin to how fae protect themselves via sleight of hand, and charm. Their aggression-protection is like fine china and poison, to teach such a person say, martial arts, chi-packing for muscle training … isn’t exactly what would be the smartest prescription.

Another example: someone who has a high scorpionic energy might be the type of system that “eats” a lot of what would be considered toxic energy and highstress environments. Think of a snail or a plant that’s thrived off of digesting and alchemizing a difficult toxin, they are a natural poison feeder and it is a fine line to discern someone who’s deep in this energy: if they are the poison or if they are the cure. Are they both? Venom, snake, an immune constrictor? Who knows?

This is when deep discernment, and what I would also like to call Clarity/Clear Seeing comes to play. I feel like most folks consider third-eye shenanigans as just being able to see ghosts, or pick up energys and vibes off of auras and people. (Side note: I’ll have you note that true masters can fully cloak their energies so if you still kind of swoon over teachers based off how nice their energy/aura is, you’re behaving like an impulsive moth instead of someone who’s trying to See, Clearly See. I also find it hilarious that this is a plot point in Freiren, an anime/manga HAHAH) Anyway, going back to scorpionic energy, the capacity to clearly see has a mental-cutting thru energy thru thought-forms, and almost de-boning something to it’s seed-form version of it’s True Intentions. Almost like it’s natal and naked truth. The very birth of your desires and your actions, where was is actually coming from? What is actually happening?

When you sit with that sensitivity, is it coming from a need to be special? Do you feel safer because you’re anticipating needs from a hostile environment? Maybe it feels nice to be wanted/helpful? Really look at that openness and sensitivity, gut it to it’s core — why is your energy architected like that really? Maybe it feels nice to be unprotected cause folks would swoon in to help you, ah would love me a nice daddy protector energy. Cull it until you get to the very purest reasons, and discard anything else that feels, well, immature. When you have motivations that feel very gray area, or entangled, mucky, and complex I do advise to simply see the Truth so that one can progress forward. If you are wielding some of that scorpio aspects (which I also have some so I do can clock it), do you even wear it well? Wield it properly? Using a bodily sensitivity on others can be quite manipulative so let’s not do that.

Let’s do a few more examples, which I assure you can’t cover all the possible cases but I do hope opens up the realm of possibilities why say, shielding isn’t working for you, and you’re still energetically yoinked open.

I’ve had a client before who has the energetic frequency of the inner-side of a seed. Think a fragile hermit crab/crustacean seeking a shell, or a tortoise looking for it’s exo-skeleton. For this person, they weren’t supposed to “Build/Invoke” a shield. They were supposed to drop into one/find one and just nest, they don’t visualize a shield, they drop into pockets of space-time. Like a seed would, or in the deep wisdom of animals that simply discover these shells or caves to rest. Do you suck at making energetic shields? Maybe you weren’t meant to make them in the first place.

I’ve also had very powerful wxches/priestess energies and friends who also undergo massive healing crisises, “shamanic sicknesses” as initiations. This has been written about a whole lot but I just want to emphasize/re-iterate one part: Sometimes we take part of a “breaking down” because we want to study the inside of the illness. There is no nobility in taking on more pain then what is due/assigned to you. (I’ll talk more about this later).

When you have initiations, they’re also TESTS. Can you transmute that energy? Pull it out your lowerback? What energies and archetypes are emerging with that massive headache? Okay so there’s weird sensations pulling your heart open like a cardiac arrest — look at your heart architecture, based on what you know? How do you ground that circuitry? Can you pass your finals? It is an exam.

I feel like a lot of folks kind of gently wash over concepts of physical initiations as like an emotional thing: I needed to forgive someone, release my shame etc. These are just as valid, but I do want to say, your energetic bodies have architecture, the 4-5 elements (depending on the wisdom-body lineage you use), have a specific kind of chemistry that will blow up in your face if you don’t know how to manipulate it well. You can’t forgive yourself into a chemical reaction, if anything forgiveness is just more water, and if you’re handling, well, a tidal wave, that’s not magickally going to make a dam no matter how many times you say sorry. If you’re initiated into a bodily mastery without a good hold of mechanics, transmutation, alchemizing your bodily energy, then well you won’t be able to trouble shoot a system that’s been busted open. It’s simply logical reasoning.

Last example, and this is hilariously common in anime as well: yes you can take up other people’s karma/karmic imprint when you’re being say, overly compassionate. A lot of healer/modalities, can pass off as really effective when sometimes it’s just the main leader, who has a really high capacity to burn off karmic imprints themselves. So they can attrain and take that weight and burn off stuff for you, in some ways, that’s the whole idea of a devotee-guru, bhakti relationship. The edges of where you and I are separate from each other dissolve, so your karmic weight, and your, well spiritual furnaces that burn off these things, meld into one. So some folks who “pick up” on a lot of people’s pain have touched on this truth but are not consciously participating in it.

I’ll be honest: When you have a lot spiritual firepower, flicking some of folks most stubborn blocks, by momentarily swallowing it, is… an effective surgical techniques. It’s like martial arts, if you have a good grasp of your weight class and skill set, you can get into fights and relatively keep yourself safe enough to know you won’t get hurt. The same logic goes for any kind of purges, cleanses, spiritual barter and contract negotiation: if you’re smart enough, you won’t massively burn your own butt and run yourself to the ground.

Here’s my second honest statement: I’ have burned my own ass and ran myself to the ground a few good couple of times to be able to say it’s a dangerous sport. Once you unlock a deep compassion and relating to spirit that could touch so many of the injured from wars, of different layers, dimensions, and timestreams, they will crash your heart open. But will also wreck your body.

Sensitive body? Hah! Talk about being able to feel the violence of the whole world all at the same time, who needs a shroom trip when you can access that naturally? Now get your own ass out of that mess. Good,

Which brings me back to the thesis statement of my whole blogpost: Your Hyper-Sensitivity May Be Calling to Greater Energetic-Body Mastery/Knowing. BAT WITHIN YOUR OWN WEIGHTCLASS. Don’t dissipate into nothing.

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I’d like to close out with a simple story from yogis/rishis:

You spend all this time learning how to drop/burn karma. And when all of it is burned off we do our best to make some (attachment, grander purpose) to stay longer/more fluidly here.

I know there are spiritual camps that would preach about dropping the persona and existing as oneness in a meat-corpse experience completely identity-less but I must tell you, I am not a fan. The reason why buddhism and all these traditions talk about building an avatar/energetic-body/programming it is cause, well, I DONT KNOW ISN’T IT KINDA FUN TO PILOT ONE??

So when you’re too naked and bare, maybe you’ve been so gungho about stripping identity/”matrix-reality” that you didn’t even consider getting better at:
design
architecture
programming
energetic master of your body forms, and how it interlaces with all the other damn dimensions.

But that is only my opinion I guess.
Sincerely, Maria